31 Day Blog Challenge - Day Eighteen
Day Eighteen - What Am I Afraid Of?
You can look at this day in two different ways. Literally as the question is stated; what am I afraid of? Rollercoasters, mice, flying six hours over water with an anaphylactic child. Or the way I'm going to interpret it: what is your fear? What holds you back because of fear? Failure...I'm afraid to fail and that's why I find moving forward on to my dream job so scary.
It's very easy to stay in your comfort zone. I'm good at being stay-at-home Mom (some women aren't cut out for it - no judgement, just a fact, ask them) so it's become a safe zone for me. I'm good at writing a blog and for Leaside Life. I do it because I like to share my love of fashion and beauty (and community) and I'm not concerned about it becoming a career for me. If I ever wanted to walk away from it, I easily could. But if I opened a store (which I think I'm equipped to do) I'm afraid that no one would shop there and I'd have to close. And to close would mean I've failed. And then everyone would know - Vicki failed - she couldn't do it. Those are the noises in my head that keep me from moving forward and doing something that I think would make me very happy. Although I have to admit lunch with Karlye, and a glass of wine in the backyard yesterday afternoon with Leslie might hold me back a little too. I love the freedom of being able to do what I want when I want. Before you scream that I'm spoiled and 'unfriend' me on Facebook...I know that I'm very lucky to be able to do this, and because of this I give back in as many ways as I can. Just wanted to clear that up.
There are really only two emotions in life...fear is one of them, love is the other. Every other emotion is derived from those two. I know it's 'big emotional thinking', but if you're able to remove fear from your life (don't worry - it doesn't mean you have to go on rollercoasters if you hate them) you will leave yourself open only to love. Being open to love is when the goodness and gift of life really begins to flow and fear no longer holds you back.
With love, not fear...